Hope, Tuesday at the Neuro ICU
If you’ve had even a glimpse of hope, deep belief, faith and courage,
they will bring us to a neutral place, and still knowing that this moment has the ability to change, positively and negatively.
Awareness seems to fill this moment with meaning and comfort.
So what happens when the awareness wears off and doesn’t stay? Does the faith change, does negativity take over? I’ve been engaged in daily meditative practice, visualizing my mothers smile, praying and communicating with angels, my grandmother, and dad. Daily family and friends connect with our hearts and still the moment continues to change.
I continue to pray with deep compassion for everyone here in the ICU.
I just remembered as I was feeling it, to be compassionate to me.
Thank you for the awakening that continues to flow,
because sometimes we are just asleep and miss the signals.
Then an awareness happens again.
The sky was a little gray this morning, yet the sun was trying to peek through like a peep of light. When we allow the light to be felt, we can be the lightness of whats possible.
The discovery that completely transforms me today
is an awakening to our Divine presence, tapping into my heart consciousness and into a gentle spiritual consciousness.
I dwell in God. I feel the God in another, and the namaste has such true meaning.
Phone calls have been challenging today because words are not where my heart and soul are.
I keep jumping in and out of space and time.
Time has little meaning except to know when docs are doing their rounds.
Food seems to be comforting and I am discovering some great cafes with clean food. Thank goodness. We just came back from breakfast and mom is quietly, resting as we watch and wait for the universe to hold her heart
and to heal her brain.
My heart knows to awaken her sleeping brain, her cells must not communicate shock, they must experience a state of peace and harmony.
We must let the brain rest, and sleep.
I am holding the hope for her brain cells to let go of the shock and suffering
so that her healing can happen. I bring my hands to my heart intentionally sending love, courage for her and all of those here.
Perhaps for all to feel the comfort, compassion and love.
There are blue dressed human angels here that come together with an intention to truly heal. Gratitude is now just a word, because they have gone beyond their own knowledge of healing.
I am really having a difficult time using language to describe their offering
to human healing. Looking in the direction of light I realize the love we receive, and the truth about life.
Is mom waiting to heal or is she waiting for God and the angels guidance? Feeling the love, I must rest my mind.
In Gods loving grace, may healing happen.
In Harmony with Heart